The TV interview and other disappointments

posted by Patty James @ 1:24pm, Friday 16 April 2010.

Yesterday I sent an email to the producer of the TV show in Washington DC that I was on today reiterating Shine The Light On America's Kids. Before the show today I chatted with the hosts about it as well. Not one question or word about it in the interview. I spend 4 days at $80.00/night here waiting for this top 10 market interview and not one mention. I am really bummed. Also I wear a size 8 and had on tons of make-up and looked overweight and washed out! Next time-cake on that make-up! I will loose 10 pounds before I get to the NYC interviews...

Here is the link if you want to watch it    http://www.letstalklive.tv/ 

Yesterday I was so excited about my meeting at Congresswoman Lynn Woolsey's office and other things that happened during the day. Last night I received a call from someone in my past whose voice I would rather not hear and then I don't hear from voices I would like to hear from. I was telling Nancy this morning about something else that has been troubling me....I'm not sure exactly how to put this...When I take Patch and Wilma for a walk I say hello to people I pass, with a smile. Seldom do I receive anything back except a glare and a scowl. At first I thought, well, he or she is having a bad day, but it's been 4 days and it's the same story. It's just me though-I started to pay attention. It's the color of my skin. It's not, by the way, the people my own age; it's the young people. They don't know me, but they don't like me. I pay no attention, as anyone will tell you, to their skin color, but I am certainly being judged by mine and by the young people, which is what is upsetting for me. I am disconcerted about this- I truly am. I need to put this somewhere in my head. These kids don't know I am traveling the country trying to help them. For some reason that I can't imagine, something happened in their young lives to make them not like whatever they think I represent. The other aspect of this last paragraph's rant, is that I have been disappointed by people I thought were close to me lately. I realize that I perennially look at life and people through rose-colored glasses.

So....how to put this all somewhere...

Life is a learning curve and I realize sometimes I am a little slow, but I can be taught. Every less than perfect friendship/relationship with people in my life can culminate in growth. Every day that goes by makes me a little clearer about many things- people, places, and what is important. For me the people I love-my family and friends are everything. The passion I have for my work is something that I never take for granted. I know how lucky I am that I am doing work that I love, that is fulfilling for me and helpful for others. So many people go through life never feeling this passion and I hope those people find it and live it.

There's more, but my doggies are looking at me...more later tonight after I give this all more thought. I don't like feeling 'off' and as you know I snap out of it pretty quickly...starting to already... I will also tell you about where I am going to interview kids this Sunday-interesting...

My friend Sharon Wegner is working hard on disseminated the written STL surveys! Thank you Sharon!